How To Deal

Finally, I achieved one of my goals: to be called out to recite in a class and actually answer the question! Finally. Since classes started, I have been itching to recite just because I feel that my efforts in studying is completely being thrown out the window with every missed opportunity to actually use that understanding.

But despite the need to study at least 8 hours a day and sleep less than 7 hours a day, it has been fun and fulfilling. Apparently, people could see that even though I lack sleep and I’m haggard most of the time, you could see how happy I am with what I’m doing. It’s tiring most of the time, but you still go at it every morning.

In more instances than one, it only becomes a matter of perspective. If you really want what you’re doing and enjoy it, every little thing that appears to be a burden and even every hurdle, you only see as a challenge – something that you can actually overcome. It’s not even a burden. Nothing can and will bring you down because you love what you do and sometimes, even though people can’t understand why, you just do it because it makes you happy – no matter how crappy you look.

So excuse me if I have to wear make-up just to cover my eyebags and my pale complexion. It’s something I have to do so that I wouldn’t look like a Twilight vampire. Excuse me if I either eat a lot or none at all whenever I hang-out with other people. Excuse me if I have to dance the way I do just to keep myself awake. Excuse me if I talk to myself just to understand the lessons and memorize them.

But I love this. I really do. I wouldn’t leave it for a million bucks.