How To Deal

To those who do not yet know, I enrolled myself to law school just this Monday. And although it means the beginning of a long journey towards the hopeful fulfillment of one of my just-realized-in-college-dreams, it will have to come at the expense of doing something I love and am passionate about.

Recently, I started working in a school as an administrative assisstant. So far, my first two days included doing work I have done in the past – FOH and FO things. Tomorrow, I will be doing some accounting related work, and honestly, I am looking forward to it. I know for sure that while it is still summer, I have the expressed permission of my boss to switch schedules to give way to my RX training with Chico & Delle. Unfortunately, I am having a hard time picturing the situation once classes start.

You see, even if I am already in the afternoon session that will most likely be from 1PM to 5PM, depending on my section, I will definitely need at least 6 hours a day to study. Give or take that I will be home by 7PM, and 8PM whenever our car is coding, that would leave me another 4-5 hours a day to study and that doesn’t include my bath and eating time. My work requires me to be in school from 8-12 NN, leaving me 6 hours of sleep a day. There just isn’t enough time!

And think, think seriously if I will still be able to squeeze my RX training if it means I have to make up for the lost hours of work. Forget the mantra, “we’ll cross the bridge when we get there,” because seriously, I have to decide soon. Not yet now, but soon. I have to decide by the end of the month. The bridge is already here, and I’m just dwadling the last couple of steps to get to the end of the bridge. It’s frustrating.

I have to think and decide fast though. Most definitely, I will not be going to work on June 4-5, and I am still unsure about the Intro to Law week since it’s from 5-9PM because I know I will need time to study and again, there’s not enough time with my schedule. But definitely, I have to LOA from RX once classes start, and I am not yet even sure when I’ll be back – probably when I stop working. But I have to work for the whole month of May, and most probably, if I am having a hard time balancing my studies and work, then I have to leave my job – even if I love and enjoy it so much.

And so… I am dreading the end of May! That’s when everything is going to happen. Then come the middle of June, I will most likely have to decide whether or not I should stay and keep my job. I just wish I can come back working during our semestral break or what. But for now, I have to momentarily let go of RX starting June. I don’t exactly have the pleasure of time anymore.